Once again with the headspace: I would rather talk about geopolitics than about how I feel. I would prefer to ask searching questions about computer technology than ones about my motivations. There’s a comfort in knowing that I can hold a table full of people’s attention on the matter of effective household composting but fail to recognise in others how they might be feeling.
It also means I don’t have to listen but just talk.
It also means I believe that I always have the answers and rarely say ‘I don’t know.’
What’s more, I know I do this but I cannot accept that this is right. Knowing it is not right makes it difficult to move on (let go does not capture this at all) because feeling these ways makes me uncomfortable.
Sometimes there is just no now. Or now. Or now.